Saturday, March 8, 2008
I should probably explain before I get started. On January 1st Nick and I made a very important decision. We decided we wanted to have a child. This is something I have wanted since we got married, but Nick wanted to wait a while so we could enjoy a few years alone. That decision was absolutely the best. We have had an amazing marriage and now we are both ready. At first I naively thought it would happen the first try. Well three months in to this journey, I am beginning to doubt those thoughts. At first I was so excited and began researching everything. I looked at vitamins for me, pregnancy websites, baby clothes, furniture, books, and basically everything I could get my hands on. Then after the first two months tests were negative, I HAD to stop looking at everything. It made me depressed and I thought I was only getting my hopes up just to be let down. I am trying to stay positive, because it has only been three months. However, when you want something so bad, three months seems like eternity. I know that I will become pregnant when I am suppose to and that God truly does have a plan for me. Please keep Nick and I in your prayers and hopefully I will be able to post good news soon.